Kids, the best way to deal with your problems is to talk to someone.. And that is what I did.. This story that Im about to tell you is special.. Not only because it changed me, but also because the person who helped me through with this were neither my close friend, nor my family.. But that someone was my lecturer..
This is the story of how I finally get over a broken heart..
It all started when my roommate was hospitalized for a serious illness back in early 2011.. The news came as a shock since he was really fine a week before that.. Looking down at my friend with a ventilator and many sorts of wires around his body, I was numb.. I blamed myself for not knowing about this sooner.. That night, I went back to my room sluggishly.. It was just 11pm, but I decided to turn in.. As I turned off the lamps and adjusting my blanket, I started to cry..
Im not such a person with a stone heart.. At this time, I really needed someone to talk to.. I had someone in mind.. But my text did not get a reply.. Like many times.. I started to assume the worst of that person..
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Entah macam mana boleh tergerak hati aku untuk jumpa lecturer aku ni.. Mungkin sebab character dia yang caring dan motherly buatkan aku rasa secure.. First time aku pergi bilik dia, dia takda.. Jadi aku pun dah tawar hati la nak jumpa.. Aku datang secara sukarela ni pun dah kira baik.. Tapi masa next class, lecturer aku ada tanya,
'Fariq, u did not come and see me.'
'I was there. But u were not available.' Jawab aku malas..
'But I put a note outside .. Mentioning that u should come the next day.'
Alamak, tak tahu pula aku madam ada letak note.. Siap tulis nama aku lagi.. So, madam dah suruh datang terpaksa la aku pergi.. Masa tu dah nak start final exam..
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'Can we talk about something not related to academic matters?' Suara aku sekat-sekat.. Aku cuba untuk tidak melihat ke arah wajah madam.. Aku tahu aku datang sini bukan hanya kerana terpaksa, tapi sebab aku perlukan pertolongan daripada dia..
'Sure.. What do you want to talk about?' Ringkas jawapannya.. Tapi cukup bermakna..
Maka, aku pun mulalah cerita apa yang terjadi pada aku.. Entah dari mana aku dapat kekuatan untuk cerita pada lec aku ni aku pun tak tahu.. Tapi aku rasa happy bila dapat luah masalah aku.. Aku mula story pasal conflict dengan kawan aku ni..
'Fariq! You should have come and see me earlier.' Madam marah dalam sinis bila dia tahu akan perubahan emosi aku semenjak dua menjak ni.. Untunglah aku dapat sesi kaunseling free.. Kalau kat luar mahu kena 5, 6 ratus ni..
'You know what, u should try to confront her and say that you are sorry.. That you have no intention to say that. . . . . . but if she chooses to ignore you, then maybe you should start to move on.'
Lebih kurang macam tu la ayat dia.. Lepas tu, madam bagi suggestion untuk aku overcome rasa lonely aku so aku tak rasa sedih malam-malam.. Aku dengar, dan aku paham.. Lepas hampir 45 minit sesi luahan hati aku, aku minta izin untuk beredar..
'Fariq. . '
Madam panggil masa aku dah nak melangkah keluar.. Aku berhenti dan toleh ke arah dia..
And kids, what she's about to say proved to be one of the turning points in my life..
'You know what?? Just remember that you are not alone.. You still have Allah'..
Aku speechless. . . .
