As final exam is approaching (2 weeks more to be exact), I just realized about something.. How fast time flies and how things have changed.. For the past few weeks, I have been struggling with my quizzes, assignments and all typical students' stuff.. And for the past few months, I have been experiencing a roller coaster feeling.. There were lots of wonderful things that had happened.. It makes me smile, laugh, and most importantly, it makes me forget about everything.. Yet, it was only for a short period of time.. On top of that, I am still sad for the bad thing that I have done.. How on earth I could have done such a terrible act?? Sigh..
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By this time last year, something wonderful happened to me.. I met someone.. A new friend I would say.. We were in the same class, but I never managed to get a chance to talk to her.. Why should I bother anyway? She just a girl, a classmate.. At least thats what I thought, initially. Not long enough, I guess Cupid just did his/her job again.. It's been a while since i do this so called usha2 thing hahaha.. I got sense that she maybe not just someone.. Damn!!
I still can recall, it was on Thursday and it was after our class together.. I saw you, walking just metres in front of me, alone!! A moment that I've been waiting for.. It's now or never.. As I was walking towards you, i swallowed my nervousness and did something brave.. Probably gentleman too (laugh)..
'Hai, awak ni A........ kan?'
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Well, that was dated 2 semester ago (I have such a good long-term memory).. But we became close friends only since last semester.. Ever since the 1st day of the semester, up until the end.. We were inseparable.. We were always be there for each other, and we shared our problems together.. We talked about anything - sports, geography, food, music, books, film etc.. You named it, she knew.. Her insight knowledge on everything mesmerised me.. The way she thinks was perfect.. A beauty with brain :).. Everything was so easy when A is around.. It is good to have someone who you can share and talk about anything.. Also, A taught me about a lot of things - things that were unknown to me before.. I learnt new things as well.. I started to show interest in food, fashion (she loves shoes hoho) and places to visit.. We text every day, so I kinda upset if she did not reply my messages.. I liked her.. And A knew..
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This time around, everything seems to be reversed.. We were still good at the early stage - until I hurt her with my unthoughtful and mean words.. I have to admit that it was my mistake.. A foolish mistakes made by a naive kid.. This is the beginning of all the sadness and despair that I have been carrying along since.. The feeling of friendship is no longer there.. We're not as close as we used to.. We are heading for separate paths now.. No more texts, and that is where loneliness became my friend.. Until now, I always blaming myself for the damage..
A, you are such a nice friend..
A friend that i always cared yesterday, and I care for you still, I always have and I always will..
#good luck in your final.. I bought you a card hehe
Good luck!!
