Sorry Seems To Be The Last Word

For every time when loneliness and sadness appeared,

It could only reminds me of you,

Things that I've done, (u_u)

Words that expressed from my irrational thinking and unstable emotion,

It hurts.

Little did I realized it became a sword that cut through every connection,

Just like the reality of the world,

That holds a lot of secrets - waiting to be revealed,

But sometimes secrets are meant to be concealed,

Because eyes can be deceiving, yet we still perceive,

Only to know that truth hurts, as it does not always fit your ideal schema.

Guys, and perhaps girls,

Think deeply before you make an expectation that is based on no-evidences, so called assumption,

Think again, and again,

Before you act, before you start this blame game,

Or initiate a personal attack.

Because once step forward you make means twice you will regret,

Things are not gonna be the same - only time will tell.

I realized about it - seconds after I started it,

Terlajak perahu boleh berundur, terlajak kata badan binasa.

I'm screwed - at least thats what I thought,

I'm hurting you when you knew nothing about it,

I'm accusing you when you keep denying about it,

And when I look back at you, only then I realized how much pain I have caused.

We're just human being, and we made mistakes,

The hardest part is, not to repeat them,

Learn from the past so others will get benefit.

I can't forgive myself until you said that to me,

While I still have time, and while I still have chances,

I'll take the risks, even if that means I'm losing you,

I'll keep on trying, and at least I tried,

To say that,

Deeply, truly, honestly, madly,

"AWAK, SAYA MINTA MAAF!!!"

Thursday

It's Thursday,

A day I've been waiting for,

Week in week out,

Ever since Im carrying this broken heart.

It's Thursday,

I can't wait to come home faster,

Cause I can't hold myself any longer,

I am not weak, nor even stronger,

I just want to make myself better.

It's Thursday,

Ever since the day you started running away,

And pretend that its okay,

I have just lost my way,

Why should I stay anyway?

It's Thursday,

That I can have my holiday,

And I can start to smile again,

A fake smile and a burden of pain,

That flows through my vein,

Will be forgotten.

Hey Thursday,

Please stay,

Don't go,

I need you.

Bola, Provokasi, dan Perpaduan

Ni cerita masa tengok bola kat Bukit Jalil.. Malaysia masuk final, satu kampung turun support.. Masa kat Masjid Jamek, ada la sekeluarga orang Indonesia ni tanya train mana nak naik.. senang cite, diorang follow je train mana aku naik.. Diorang ok je, sopan santun dan berbudi bahasa.. Aku siap ambik gambar lagi buat kenangan hehe.. Dalam train jangan cite la.. Penyokong Malaysia conquered habis.. Macam sardin.. Sian gak tengok family tu kena himpit dengan fans Malaysia.. Walaupun tak sama negara, ada juga sorang mamat ni baik hati yang offer seat untuk pakcik tu.. Bagus bagus.. Walaupun berlainan negara, tapi tak bermaksud kita ni musuh..

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 Ayuh Malaysia!! Tapi sedih la pasal lambat masuk, seat penuh sampai tak boleh nak masuk dalam dah.. Alamatnya, duduk mencangkung la aku sepanjang 45 minit pertama.. Nasib baik ada Wan.. Abang dan sepupu aku hilang ntah ke mana.. Dalam hati geram gak la.. Bayar 30 ringgit tapi duduk mencangkung.. Apa cite ni der..

Sebelum start 2nd half, aku pindah tempat lain lak.. Terpisah pula dengan Wan.. Aku dapat seat dekat penyokong Indonesia.. Aiseh.. Nasib baik ada gak fans Malaysia situ.. In case apa-apa jadi kat aku ada gak backup..

Bila Malaysia skor, histeria aku (termasuk seluruh yang ada kat stadium).. punya la happy sampai aku lari dengan banner Malaysia pusing-pusing kawasan stadium.. Nasib baik tengok bola, so orang takde la rasa pelik kot hehe.. Bila Malaysia skor gol kedua dan ketiga, makin riuh stadium.. Semua orang menyanyi, menari, melompat dan macam-macam ragam yang korang tak boleh tengok kat tempat lain.. Masing-masing peluk antara satu sama lain walaupun tak kenal.. Peduli apa.. Sebab kan bola, semua orang bersatu..

Habis 90 minit, semua orang menjerit kegembiraan.. Sukar nak gambarkan perasaan masa tu.. Rasa macam nak masuk stadium celebrate sama-sama dengan pemain Malaysia.. Apa-apa pun, aku rasa Malaysia memang layak untuk menang.. Tahniah pasukan Malaysia!!! Syabas para penyokong!!!